Do you ever wonder if you're a good mommy? I disappoint myself when I sigh because Xander's crying again or a grunt when he won't eat his food. I love that kid more than any words could describe, so why do I get fustrated so easily? Sometimes I dream of a day when I can sleep 8 hours and wake up on my own account, sit around and do nothing. Xander's only 8 months old and again, I disappoint myself when I have these thoughts. I have wanted to be a mother for so long but nothing (not even the 100 of baby books I have read) can prepare you for true motherhood.
Think of it this way...our mood directly correlates to our resources and tasks at hand. If we have a difficult task (mothering) and low resources (sleepy) then our mood will be "frustrated." Only a crazy person would be happy trying to do something so important with "inadequate" resources. And it's likely that you're not frustrated with him, you're frustrated that you can't make him eat, or you can't make him nap peacefully. You're a great mom, and you want so much for him, and you get frustrated when he's not doing what's good for him. I think THAT is the absolute definition "motherhood."
ReplyDeletethanks Rica!!!!!! That really does help. Oh and he's been sleeping a little better at night so I'm not so tired :) thank goodness!!!
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