I just can't do it!

Two nights ago I came home from work to find out that Destructo had just gone to bed. I could still hear him rustling around on the baby monitor and I had an internal battle:

Me - go in there and say good night
Me - no don't go in there cause then he'll think its time to play
Me - you missed him all day and he missed you, go in there
Me - don't do it, it'll throw off his whole night

So I waited until the moving stopped and I snuck in there, I rubbed his back and covered him back up with the blanket (which i had to pull out from underneath him since he likes to ball it up and lay on top of it) which then woke him up. So I snuggled with him for a minute or two and put him back to bed.

Yesterday morning I had to leave the house so early that I walked into Destructo's room, got him out of his crib, put him in an outfit, put him in the car and dropped him off at the babysitter's. I spent maybe 15 minutes total with him. Then I raced home from work last night sure that I'd get to send a good half hour with him, only to find him in bed again. The Handy Hottie told him he tried and tried to keep him awake long enough for me to see him but (him not feeling well) he just couldn't stay awake!

Then there was this morning... I was getting ready to walk out the door when I finally heard Destructo wake up. I spent about 5 minutes with him before leaving for work.

It's been hard, real hard. I don't want to do it, I CAN'T do it! I need time with my son!!

Career Change

I recently have gotten a new job that I LOVE LOVE LOVE. I am now a Personal Trainer. I have been working at Club Fitness (a St Louis area based gym) for about a month now. I have started my day about an hour earlier than what I've been working in the past..... and it's actually easy to get up in the mornings. I'm not sure if it's that I enjoy the job that I'm going to or the extra energy I have from working out but I get up in the mornings with less grunts and groans as each day passes. The great think about being a Personal Trainer is that I get to decide if my day is going to be the same as yesterday or if it's going to be new and exciting and I have chosen to always make it new and exciting. I love shaking things up and making my client say "you want me to do what!?" and then seeing them succeed and being proud of themselves for it. I received an email after meeting a woman for the first time saying "Thank you for making something that's been so intimidating to me seem easy". THAT is what makes my day!!!

Unhealthy Ways

I am so fustrated today. Patrick and I went out to eat the other day and I got fish and a side of veggies (the default side is fries), "that's going to be 75 cents extra" the waitress says, "really? you're going to charge me more to eat healthy?" I say. I'm not mad at the waitress, she doesn't set the prices and I know from working in a the food business before that she can't enter in veggies and NOT charge me the 75 cents.

So who do you blame? The manager? The resteraunt owner? America?

Our country seems to be getting worse with our eating habits. Do other countries eat this poorly? How can those in office say they are fighting childhood obesity in schools and blah blah blah and then I have to pay extra for some vegetables? The kids meals at this particular resteraunt USED to come with a bag of baby carrots AND oreos.... now they just come with oreos. Does anyone else see something wrong with this? Cut out the oreos and keep the baby carrots for goodness sake!!!! I feel that I do a pretty good job introducing a variety of foods to my 13 month old. I make sure he eats his veggies (which he loves) and I only let him splurge with white potatoes on occasion. Parents.com states "Scary fact: French fries are one of kids' favorite vegetables. Even scarier: Research has found that one third of young children eat virtually no vegetables at all".

Well.... Maybe cause they charge us extra for them!!!!! SHEESH!!!

Happy Birthday To You!

September 17th, Xander turned 1 year old. Wow, a whole year has gone by! In just 12 months, my baby blob has learned to sit up, stand, talk, walk and the millions of things that he has discovered is amazing!! Can you come up with such an impressive list of the things that you have done in the last year?

Xander starts walking

well it's been 2 months but i'm just now catching up on things remember!! It did not take any tricks or treats to get Xander to start walking, once he figured out that he could travel on his feet, it was all over from there. Back in late July he started walking really well while holding on to things

then by late August he was walking without help

and he's never looked back.

Time to Play Catch Up

My October resolution... To be a better blogger.

Xander has been keeping me super busy. He is not only a walker, but he's a runner, a climber, a daredevil. He likes to test his boundaries and gets his feelings hurt when he hears "No No". That head of his is hard as a rock. He likes to head butt and can bring anyone to tears from it. The dogs don't like to be head butted, but try explaining that to a 12 month old. The biggest change in his life is that he FINALLY sleeps through the night!!! Oh how exciting that has been!! It only took him a year but he does sleep and he sleeps WELL. I can put him down at 8pm and not hear him till 6:45-7am. More catching up (and photos) very soon!

the worst

I'm the worst blogger ever!!!!!!! I can't seem to think of things to write about!!! AGH!!!

First tooth is coming in

our poor man finally had his first tooth break the gums!!!!! (only 10 1/2 months old). He is fine during the day but does have some trouble sleeping at night. It does not however hinder his Tigger jumping abilities in his crib. Will let you know when it's fully in and I'll even try to take a picture =)

Xander's bear crawl

First Words

Xander is very expressive. He makes lots of sounds and inflections with his voice. He has made dadadadada, mamamama and bababababa sounds. But yesterday and today I got an intentional Mama!!!!!!!!!! OH YEAH!!!!!